littlered

littlered, originally uploaded by thealphafemale.

drift (rain sculpture)

drift (rain sculpture), originally uploaded by thealphafemale.

all these discarded (or lost)
objects
thrown together in a slam
of nature’s obvious metaphor.
it’s ironic, clearly.

they all fit, so perfectly.
a muddled, jigsaw
and i am there just to hold and
capture the smash (crush/heartbreak/clingingtogetherimaginingyoureknowingyourebeingpulledapart)

breathe in.
oh
oh
oh my guts.

oh my eyelids
oh your singular freckles
oh my collarbones
oh our humidity

suppress a million arms
they cannot remember the old mistakes
you are not a being of any people
you
are
(grabbingholdingtouchingcloserclosercloser)

breathe in.

empty space

empty space, originally uploaded by thealphafemale.

without this,
plastic constellations
imagined in my 10 year old friend’s bedroom
move despite my protests
around me
around you, in a way.

in the hollow room
i am cold and content
smooth, consistent, even
these are the feelings
these are the reasons.

(or was it all a small mistake? i always read into everything far more than it meant.)

i am
glowing
the same temperature as the day
and spine brimming like the cup
i’m drinking
the sun
the music in my photo
the lens on my lens

and for once
it’s not because hislipsherlipsonmylips
orbodies
or
whatever.

there’s a bounce in my step and it’s all
all
ALL
me.

fashion teaser (fashion is danger)

fashion teaser (fashion is danger), originally uploaded by thealphafemale.